“Is Moving on really that hard?”
2 words 8 letters. M-O-V-I-N-G O-N.
It’s almost 5 months since he left me. 5 months full of unexpected happenings. 5 months of grief. “He’s just a guy” they said. But “that guy” became my world. In those 5 months, God made me realize so many things. Yes, It’s hard to accept the fact that he’s no longer mine, but the fact that he’s still a part of my life is a blessing.
People say you should forget the people in the past… but you can’t. (unless you’ll have amnesia or some brain damage). Let’s just accept the truth and just face our future with a big smile on our faces. It’s not that bad to look back at the past, because the past made you who you are now…
Moving on can really take time. Some people took years to move on. It requires alot of patience, prayer and tissues. haha.. Let me share you a part of my moving on experience…
The day after our break-up, I just felt freedom, i was kind of happy in a way. There were no “do’s” and “dont’s” so I just went on with my normal daily routine. Weeks passed and that’s where i felt the grief, I had no one to talk to at the middle of the night, There was no one asking me if I already had my dinner or did I got home safely, There were no goodmorning and goodnight messages, most of all… there were no “i love you’s”. I started missing him so much that I decided to message him for one last time just for a closure and he just said that he still needed time. A month passed, then I heard that he is now with another girl. It broke my heart into a million more pieces. I started asking God “why did he move on that quickly?” “why did you gave him to me if we were really not meant to be”, That was my last conversation with him. I started to lose faith after that. I became stubborn, I shut people off, I was depressed. That depression was also the reason why he left me. I changed, not for the better, but for the worse. I lost myself, I didn’t know who i was anymore, I was finding reasons to hate myself each and everyday. I pushed myself to fall for other guys, but i can’t. it only proved that replacing him wouldn’t be a solution. I just felt nothing but pain.
Then one day i received a message from my small group leader, she shared her devotion to me and that struck me hard. I found myself crying after I read it, later on I decided to just talk to God and tell him everything then this verse suddenly came into my mind
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is greatest when you are weak” 2 Corinthians 12:9
After having that talk with him, I prayed my heart out. I asked him for healing and strength. Minutes later I just felt his presence, I saw articles about moving on, i saw bible verses that made me stronger and there was this person who messaged me a link to @joenasandiego’s blog and I was just so blessed and amazed how God moved in my life that very moment, words could not explain how I was so blessed.
To summarize this, God breaks you because he’s just reminding you that you need him. He’s just making you stronger and wiser. God never allows pain without a purpose. You just need God to fill that empty space in your heart, allow him to enter your life and make you whole again. You’re not alone, you got your friends, family and most especially God to help you in your moving on journey. Always stay stronger than strong, God is with you. Give your heart to God and one day, he’ll give it to the right man, the man that he made just for you. Don’t rush yourself in moving on, it will only make it worse. Trust God in the process, enjoy God’s presence when you experience the pain, He will always and forever be with you and love you til’ the very end of time. You deserve the best. Better things are coming. 🙂 May God bless you so much more!